Reflection by © Michaël Lessard,
1998.
To Exist As A Christian
It seems to me that so many Christians around the world are awefully afraid of death.
Sometimes I get the impression many are Christian because they are afraid their soul will someday extinguish itself if they do not abide by religion. They are so
self-absorbed by their own little soul and thoughts of salvation, that they do
not seem to see, or even want to see, the present-day horrors of humanity and
the injustices to which they sometimes indirectly participate ; mostly
unknowingly and unwillingly.
Is God a blind or superficial parent who thanks his children for doing the correct rituals and for looking fine in public, while not caring that they are not authentic ? The God I feel cares about the world, since in my view, it is all of humanity, the One, every single consciousness. If the One is the world and a spiritual All, why would my existence be more important then that of the young child bombed or starved by "my representatives" ; the leaders we have chosen.
I am not afraid of death, but I am terrified of not
living for real, of pretending to be, of living blindly in complicity. The One, universe, humanity and my life are here and now. My soul soars or
fades in how I exist truly everyday.
It just feels so foolish to live hoping for a better place in an
afterlife. Is our definition of
God simply someone on a throne that will reward us for enduring calmly yet in
quiet indifference. Is he simply an instrument of self-security with which we shelter ourselves in ritualistic servitude while turning ones eyes away from those we see being violated.
The pain and anger burning inside reminds me all the time that I too am responsible for our world. When I look back from a moment past, I know I chose either
to be afraid or to do what I knew deep down was just. Yes, I too am afraid for my soul, that is why I look
straight at myself and the present-day cruelty of humankind.
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